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So one of the things I always had from my party days was what they refer to as candy.  I wasn’t a “Candy Kid,” I just had a bracelet or two of brightly colored bead jewelry.

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This bracelet came to Kethry and she gave it to me and it was too tight but now with my weightloss it fits more comfortably.  She was excited when she saw me wearing it.

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She is just simply scrumptious, truly scrumptious and when I look at her I can truly understand that ear worm Sweet Child Of Mine…..  I picked her up and was holding her in my arms and because of my weight training and physical fitness regiment over the last 6 months, she was light.  She lamented that soon she would be too big for this but that it was ok for now.  My heart was like that first chocolate bunny clutched in your child’s death grip, where the solid milk chocolate is quickly losing its solidity and becoming a fluid. Yes, my heart melted as she said this and smiled at me, looking through her lashes.  She knows how to work it, how to wrap daddy around her finger.

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So last night, I went over to MooSe’s and hung out with him for a bit.  Three of us played dominoes, which I had not done in 30 years.  It was awesome fun and reminded me of some of those long days in the group home playing.

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So Kethry asked me to go to the park.  So we walked to the park and they played on the playground as the sun began to set.

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Haplo decided he did not want to cooperate with picture taking. I caught him doing the zombie. Kethry as always tried her best to be photogenic.

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The trees in this park are amazing. Since it is spring there is all manner of tree sex going on.

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There is this really coll tree in the park. The perfect place to take some pictures. Makes me want a digital SLR..

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Spring is in full swing and natuee is having lots of sex.  Seriously though, sometimes you just have to take a moment and enjoy nature and smell the flowers.

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Saw these on the way home. The diversity of flowers and plants here is amazing.

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I saw these two dogs leaving the park. They looked like walking teddy bears.

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My father died when I was 14, just as we were really beginning to form a relationship and not long after my mother was introduced to a guy named Bill.  When I first met him, I was standoffish at first and only gave my blessing for him to marry my mother to keep from being the only hold out.  It wasn’t until I returned home after having been gone for a few years as an adult that I realized how much he had effected my life and how much of who I am I comes from observing him.  You see, he took me aside one dayright before my parents got married and told me a secret that he had only previously shared with my mother and his family.  I was in an elite club, none of my siblings knew nor do I think they know to this day.  Remembering that as Bill embraced me and told me how good it was to see me that triggered that memory.  Hearing his voice catch in his throat as he told me he loved me made me realize that he was my Dad.   I wrongly assumed at that moment that I would have unfettered access to him for the rest of my life.   In my head I invisioned drinking a beer with him and talking about my kids but that wasn’t in the cards.  My parents divorced in 2000 and my Dad ceased all communications shortly after.

I lost touch with my Paternal family at 14 and my mother and grand mother stopped talking to my uncle at about the same time.  So my Dad’s family became our family and they were always looking for a reason to get together and celebrate.  Everything I think abd believe about holidays comes from what the McMorrow clan taught me by showing me.  I have since reconnected with my Dad’s sister Sandy and it is my hope that she might read this and somehow figure out how to read what is below to my Dad, on father’s day because I never got to tell him myself and I am not sure he really knows…  Without further ado…

Dear Dad,

Tomorrow is Father[s day and I turned 42 this year and I realized that it has been more then a decade since I last talked to you.  I realize that I was not the best son that a father could have Dad, and for that I apologize but I also want you to realize that I know I am a better person because of you.  You see Dad, you taught me so much with how you treated people, especially family and that was instilled deep in who I am.  You earned my respect Dad and because of that, I spent most of my life making sure I would never be in a situation where I would let you down,  You might say that I learned from your mistakes, the ones you shared with me Dad.  I never wanted to be on the otherside of a barrier looking at you while apologizing only to see disappointment in the eyes of my parents.

Dad, I understand why you told me to never contact you again, and I haven’t.   You see Dad, I just want to let you know how I turned out because of you.  I so want to tell you about my life, my family and to share them with you.

Haplo, my son, just turned 8 and he is amazing.  He reads on a 9th to 10th grade level.  He is very in to robots, knights, warriors and battle.  We introduced him early to Role Playing Games on the computer because they require reading and cognitive thought to play and he has mastered games that are well outside of his age group.  He is amazingly observant when it comes to flora and fauna.  He can and often spots insects and animals before everyone else does.

My daughter Kethry shares the same birthday with me.  I got her for my birthday 5 years ago and it has been an amazing adventure ever since.  She likes to think of herself as a fairy princess yet at the Ren Faire she asked for a sword instead of Fairy Wings.  She is very much a Daddy’s Girl. 

I dreamed of meeting you in a bar somewhere and sitting down with you to have a beer and pulling out my phone and showing you all of the pictures of theirs that I have on it.  Telling you the stories behind the pictures, teaching you about each one of them and then making plans for you to meet them and your family.  It’s a dream because I live about 3000 miles away and right now cannot imagine being able to afford tickets.  Even if I could, I am terrified of being on a plane with two kids for 7 hours.

I guess I really just lung for the ability to call you up out of the blue when my son does something that exasperates me and say “Hey Dad, you’ll never guess what your grandson did this time….” and we can banter about it,  I can ask you how you are doing and we can just discuss whatever happens to come up.  You see Dad, I am 42 and while I do not know everything, I do how important you were and are to me.

My 2nd Birthday

So, I share the same birthday as my daughter Kethry which is amazingly awesome because it means that she will never forget my birthday nor will she ever forget me on her birthday.  It is something amazing and magical that we share that cannot be taken away from us and we cannot lose it.  So Sunday we had a party for her at Mc Bean Park and sent invitations out to her classmates.  I was a little nervous because we had only gotten one RSVP and were not totally sure they were going to show up.  Back in September, I took Kethry to one and she was the only classmate of this kid to show up.  Sad.  So, I was afraid this would happen and it would crush her.  I was so glad that I was wrong.

Three kids showed up which was excellent and the parents were excellent.  It was as much fun for me with the parents as it was for the kids.  We had a kit to make masks and each kid made a mask.

Haplo’s mask.

Yum! Strawberries!

Hardboiled Egg Races!

Kethry made the painting in the picture and Grandma found a place online that made the doll in her hand from the picture she drew.  This is some Princess that Kethry saw in a cartoon and likes.  Awesomeness!

So, it was really like a second birthday party for me as well.  I got a $50 Starbucks gift card!  So I get coffee for the next few months!

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Kethry drew this map which she says shows the way to Grandpa’s house.  The lower purple shaded area is our town with the yellow section being our house and the violet section being Grandma Crystal’s house.  The green squiggle are the mountains on the way to SF and the green circle is treasure island with the bridge to San Francisco. Finally the purple circle inside the yellow shaded area is Grandpa’s house.  I think Kethry is trying to tell me she wants to go visit her grandfather in San Francisco. Smile

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Grandpa’s House