I often joke with my friends about dancing naked in the moonlight on the eve of the Equinoxes because the idea of dancing naked around a bonfire while humorous also seems rather fun. As has been tradition we went to the grandparents house for Easter Sunday and in the years past it was a family affair with lots of relatives. This year it was a much smaller gathering.
My mood the entire time was driven by the reality that like the spring rains that change was heading for me with a torrential deluge that had the potential to drown me. Even though I knew the storm was coming and that I am trying to accept it, change–especially the unpleasant kind, is difficult to accept.
My world was returned to me from the one whom I had finally chosen to give it to. I am not really sure how this makes me feel. I am just glad that I have the amazing group of real life and Facebook friends who are here to love and support me through this. It is an end to the largest volume of my life so far and I sort of feel like I did the summer before I turned 18. Afraid. Vulnerable. Thankfully not alone. I just hope the pain is only temporary. Sadly, I have not wanted to talk to my mother more in my life or missed her absence more…..
Today markes the start of Spring Break and last week on Tueaday was the Equinox that marks the period of time in the orbit of earth around the sun where our axis of rotation in relation to the sun makes the day and night cyclea equal. Thia happens twice each year marking the beginning and end of winter. The autumnal equinox an in the vernal equinox. These two datea have direct implications on our planet and the floral and fauna on it. If you are in to astrology Kethry and I share the same birthday and therefore we are both Pisces in European Astrology. We are Roosters or Cocks in Chinese Astrology. Take it with a grain of salt much like that idiot that does crossing over. What utter bullcrap. So I spent the day driving around with Kethry and now we are at her weekly martial arta class. I cannot remember how to spell the name correctly. She is so adorable packed with charm and charisma and personality.
She really likes to have her picture taken because I always tell her she is beautiful and show her the pictures.
So, I share the same birthday as my daughter Kethry which is amazingly awesome because it means that she will never forget my birthday nor will she ever forget me on her birthday. It is something amazing and magical that we share that cannot be taken away from us and we cannot lose it. So Sunday we had a party for her at Mc Bean Park and sent invitations out to her classmates. I was a little nervous because we had only gotten one RSVP and were not totally sure they were going to show up. Back in September, I took Kethry to one and she was the only classmate of this kid to show up. Sad. So, I was afraid this would happen and it would crush her. I was so glad that I was wrong.
Three kids showed up which was excellent and the parents were excellent. It was as much fun for me with the parents as it was for the kids. We had a kit to make masks and each kid made a mask.
Hardboiled Egg Races!
Kethry made the painting in the picture and Grandma found a place online that made the doll in her hand from the picture she drew. This is some Princess that Kethry saw in a cartoon and likes. Awesomeness!
So, it was really like a second birthday party for me as well. I got a $50 Starbucks gift card! So I get coffee for the next few months!